& What You Did To Me I , I Can't Take Any More

I'll take these bad dreams and I'll lay them at the shore...

I didn't want to write about this in here. But then I thought about. What the hell? It's my blog and who the hell reads this anyway?

Brianne called me the other day telling me that she probably wouldn't make it my shower due to her sister's graduation ceremony. Okay.

1. She doesn't even know the time and is already telling me this. Why?
2. She is my MAID OF HONOR and made a commitment to me.
   
3. Christina, my matron of honor, already cannot come and would give ANYTHING to be there. I'm going to look like a fool.
4. Brianne kept tell me how hurt her sister would be if she wasn't there. Did she not think I would be hurt as well?
5. Honestly, looking back on it..walking at graduation wasn't a big deal. I'm not asking her to forget the entire day with her family or spend the whole day with me.
6. She really has not helped at all..with anything.
   

I don't have a sister, so I don't know how this all works. So I called Emily to see how she felt about the subject. She saw both sides, but felt that since Christina couldn't be there, Brianne definitely should be. I feel that if I made a commitment to be a maid of honor (I have), I would be there, especially for Brianne.

I guess it just hurts. I don't even know what to feel, let alone what to say.

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